Monday, 19 May 2008
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White Teeth: A Novel
By Zadie Smith
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This month so far has been the epitome of my tendency to have this scanner-like personality, jumping from thing to thing, with gusto each time, but rarely settling on any one thing for too long. More and more I am trying to ccept myself a bit more and learn to work with that side of myself, rather than fight it all the time.
Meanwhile, let's just say there's been very little to report in exercise and nutrition gains. This month I have been focused on entirely different things, such as finishing up my Spanish class, making inroads at work, and finding a new apartment, which Adam and I may have just succeeded at this weekend (keep your fingers crossed!)
In fact, between my running shoes being MIA, my knee injury persisting and me having little time after work to go to the gym, etc, I sheepishly have to admit that I haven't really been exercising at all for at least the last few weeks. Ironically people keep telling me I look like I've lost weight without my mentioning anything one way or the other, and yet I feel like I've been eating a bit shittier lately also. I kind of let it all go and at first it felt good but now I just want to take control of my health again. Christine had said that for my sanity, I simply cannot expect to eat and exercise perfectly in my current living situation out on L.I., for many reasons, but I may have taken that too far and given myself carte blanche to just do whatever I feel like in the moment.
As for summer training, I continue to feel like maybe RwP is not the way to go, both financially and emotionally. Maybe I will still join Galloway or something, I don't know yet. I haven't even wanted to go on the RwP website for some reason; it just feels very far away and kind of undesirable right now. Everyone's so competitive and focused on triathlons and all this, and I could not be further from that state of mind.
I do miss Christine though, and a number of other people, especially my pace group. Life is funny: if Adam and I take the great deal of an apartment we have our sights set on in Forest Hills, I may have the money to do RwP's marathon program after all, except that Coach Adam's words about prioritizing consistency over duration continue to ring in my head and I have not yet mastered them. If my ailments lately are any indication, I will continue to struggle with weight and the injuries it causes along with speed, unless I focus on the weight loss. That can feel pretty solitary and unstructured sometimes but maybe this is the time to join Weight Watchers instead or something of the like.
Lots of changes going on right now, but just writing this short blog reminds me there is no need to leave my health by the wayside.
Current Mood: anticipatory!
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